Hello there! Yes, it has been a VERY long time since I last wrote. Life has been so busy and bustling around here, the time just slips away from me before I have a chance to sit down for a few minutes to write.
So, right to it. Since my last post around Christmas last year I did make it back to my doctor and started a second medication to help with my depression and anxiety issues. What a miracle! The difference it made in how I felt was night and day! I am so glad that I finally took that step and made it back to see her and continue my treatment. But since April or so I decided to come off of my medication. Everything was going beautifully, but I found out I am pregnant! Against all odds somehow my boyfriend and I conceived a child who is due to be born December 19, 2013. I made the decision to come off of the meds just because there wasn't enough evidence out there to convince me that it was completely safe to take them while pregnant. And actually, even though I was a little nervous about falling back down that hill of despair again, I am doing very well! I think the fact that there is a new little life growing inside of me has made it much easier to handle everything else in my life that at one point was bringing me down. Now, don't get me wrong, I still have bad moments, but my bounce-back time from those moments is much faster than it used to be. I just feel immensely blessed to have been given the chance to have another pregnancy. So far everything looks to be going well. There is just 1 baby in there this time (whew!) and based on all of my labs and an ultrasound he is developing normally and is healthy. I just thank God every day that He gave me another chance at motherhood and to know what it is like to have a basically "textbook" pregnancy this time, without all of the extra worries that come with having multiples. My 2 other little ones, who turned 6 this past June, are so excited to have a new little brother in their lives. They can't wait! I am coming up on some pretty significant anniversaries in the next few weeks that may possibly be challenging for me. First up is tomorrow, the beginning of the 25th week of my pregnancy, which is the same point in my last pregnancy that I was admitted due to mild contractions. The second date is when I reach week 29, which is the point when I delivered my 3 precious little ones. I am hopeful that the healing I have accomplished thus far will help me through these anniversaries, and I know for a fact that my boyfriend and family will help me through whatever obstacles I may not get over on my own. The support means the most!
~Casey
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