Julia Grace

Her name was Julia Grace Fisher.  She was born at Mercy St. Vincent Medical Center on June 29, 2007 at 4:09 a.m., weighed 1 pound 6 ounces, and was 13 inches long.  She had 10 tiny fingers, 10 tiny toes, and just a little bit of dark brown hair.  I got to hold her for a few hours on June 30, 2007, and then she passed from this world into Heaven at 8:53 p.m.  After it was announced that she had passed a single firework went off somewhere outside of the hospital, which I believe was her way of letting us know that she had made it into God's arms safely.  I miss her so much everyday.  Five years later and I still have so many emotions I am dealing with, and so much farther to go until I may feel just a sliver of normalcy to my life again.  The story of my journey from pregnancy to loss spans quite a few years, so I will save that for another time.   

Trying to get going

Boy, this is hard.  I have been staring at this blog for quite a while now trying to get started on my story.  The problem is there is just so much to write.  My journey begins nearly 8 years ago, from miscarriage, to infertility, to pregnancy, to loss, and then my life afterwards.  I think I am just scared to actually get going  because it means reliving all that I have been through.  It has taken me so long to start healing, that to willingly and purposefully start writing is terrifying.  But, that is why I started this blog.  I want to share my story with you and hopefully heal my heart even more, and maybe even provide some healing to someone else who may have similar experiences.  So be patient.  I am trying my hardest to get over my fear and just type.  Soon...